I was really upset yesterday about what my god-bro's relative, T, said about my weight and how people can get fatter just coz they hang around me. U think what?! Obesity can spread through air ah??? I was so upset that I told Moo that at least I can diet, but that idiot needs an Extreme Makeover! Have you seen one of those t-shirts which says "I'm fat but you're ugly. And I can diet!"?
Then I remembered how this guy, LKB, who was a fellow band member in secondary school, who also happened to study at JI, used to tease me about my weight as well. And me trying not to burst out crying in the canteen.
And I was crying out to God and basically just whining to Him. He then reminded me that people put others down to hide insecurities, to make themselves feel better. Aren't we all guilty of this? I'm totally guilty! One of the things I really like is sacarstic humour, which basically means I think it's funny when someone puts someone else down. I use sacarstic humour when I try to be funny as well. I guess I mistook sacarsm for wit.
Another thing I do all the time is I deliberately pick out physical or character flaws of beautiful people! Knowing that we're all not perfect makes me feel better about myself! Knowing that Fiona Xie is cross-eyed, and that Jessica Alba has fat genes make me feel good! Alright, secret's out! It's quite sick isn't it?
I'm still learning. Like how thoughts of T's and LKB's failures are popping in my head now. Okie. I'm trying really hard to suppress any unkind words which are at the tip of my tongue.
Hey! Where's the love? Jesus commanded us to love our neighbours (good and bad ones), and to build one another up with encouraging words.
So let's! =)
Met Grandma for lunch this afternoon. I'm happy!
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