Friday, October 10, 2003

In AWE of You we worship
And stand AMAZED at Your GREAT love
We're changed from glory to glory
We've st our hearts on You our God

It's juz blows me away!! God's luv 4 us....so BIG...so PERFECT!!
Yest's staff meeting we watched a video on homosexuality....felt really sad...dunno y...do u think God is saddend by this as well?....
Had BS with Carole...was still in awe tt God works in mysterious ways...tt the God tt we're wroshipping is a Living God!! Who speaks 2 us.....who luvs us...who comforts us...like a Friend...wow...
So during BS i was juz going on and on abt how God doesn't condemn...we were looking @ Luke 19...abt Zacchaeus the tax collector...Jesus wanted 2 stay @ Zacchaeus house even tho he was regarded as a sinner by the pple.... and then i was juz going on and on how God luvs us juz as we r...tt he doesn't condemn... Carole thot i was crazy...heh...
But i can't help it....am juz so blown away by how God luvs us....how big His luv is...u noe... it's really difficult 2 fathom with our tiny human brains how much He luvs us...how great His luv is....
The world judges us...by how we look...how we dress...our sexual orientation...how cool we r...how much money we have...how big our house is...wat car we drive... But God juz luvs us as we r...He looks @ our heart... He hates the sin but He luvs US!!!!! We're so precious 2 Him u noe....

I dunno...hehe...i'm juz so awestruck....like...wow....He's such a Big God...and i'm 1 outta a trillion pple on earth...and He luvs ME!! He luvs US!! He noes us by name...

sorrie...am blabbering again...heh...
I'm still in awe lah.... if u c me in a daze and going on and on abt how great God is liks a crazy person....noe tt i'm still in amazement.....

Wow....... =)

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

God is really Awesome!
P. Ian, Ailing and I had morning devotion this morning and we were juz praying 4 the youth leaders....and i was juz really irritated...since yest...tt Satan always come between u and God when u hv made the decision 2 follow Him or give Him ur life or juz say yes 2 s/thing tt God wants u 2 do.... That rat will always b there 2 discourage u frm following God...

Amazingly....i'm still in awe by the way....wow....God is so....WOW!!! anyway...i received the word... frm Romans 8:28-39... particularly v. 31 and 37.... juz then P. Ian's fone rang so he went out 2 ans it...so we stopped praying 4 a while...AL then asked me whether God said anything 2 me...so i told her abt the passage and tt God said if He is 4 us, who can b agst us...coz we're more than conquerors thru Him who luved us...
P. Ian came in after the fone call and AL told him tt i received a word frm God...i told him and he showed me his notebk... tt was exactly wat he had written down b4 the fone rang - "We are more than conquerors in God"....
AL received the same thing on Mon and she entered it in her blog....
Wow...it's so amazing how God spoke the same thing to 3 different pple...

AL then prayed 4 me...4 wisdom and knowledge........His wisdom and His knowledge....coz we can't do things juz based on our puny human minds....heh....

Another revelation......u noe when we say tt we submit our all 2 God....this doesn't juz mean our relationships, our finances, or family......it's mean our ALL...or EVERYTHING....even our THOTS!!!!! s/thing tt we can't control sometimes...we hv 2 submit them 2 God...
it's tough isn't it? =)
it really helps when u hv a grp of frens who can pray 4 u and keep u in track....2 think happi thots...think Godly thots...
P. Ian says devotion helps too!....begin each morning with God's Word...and align our thots with God's b4 we begin 2 do anything....

I'm struggling....i'm sure many of us r...but we're persevere....and allow God 2 change us...4 us 2 truly submit 2 Him...
Gotta pray!!!!!! =)
I was juz thinking abt Sam's prob...they hv differing views on their future 2gether...
Like her bf wanna retire @ 30 and live on the rent tt he can collect frm his property, and hv chickens running ard in their backyard...he wanna stay in a rustic cottage in the countryside, 35 mins away frm the city, by car....
She, on the other hand, wanna work and hv enuf $ 2 come back 2 Sg 2 visit her family and frens...she thinks tt he lacks ambition and tt he doesn't noe wat he wants 2 do with his life...
It's more than tt actually....2 long 2 type it out...heh...

Is this an inherent prob betw couples? do couples hv 2 share the same vision 4 the future? coz they've been living 2gether and HE wants 2 marry her soon (they're both 22)...but she doesn't wanna b tied down @ such a young age...she has yet 2 finish her degree and find work...and she doesn't wanna retire @ 30 and hv chickens running ard n her house...she doesn't wanna live in a rustic cottage in the countryside so far away frm civilization....
She's now hving doubts abt their relationship and wanna find another guy 2 test whether she truly luvs her bf or not...
As i listened 2 her yest...i told her tt she can't open another door b4 the one in Perth is closed.... I wanted 2 tell her 2 pray abt the relationship...coz she's not sure whether he's the One 4 her...but they're both not Christians...
So u think it'll b easier 4 Christians 2 deal with s/thing like this? wld it b different if God was the centre of their relationship? not tt i think non-Christians do not hv fulfilling relationships...juz tt it comes so naturally 2 me now 2 say tt we shld go 2 God abt this and ask Him wat we shld do or whether tt guy or gal is the One He had chosen 4 us...

I'm confused...heh... =p

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

Basically rotted @ hm yest...coz was my off day! heh... =) had dinner with mum and dad...was pretty gd...considering i hardly spend time @ hm now tt i'm wking...

oh! grandma might b coming 4 the chinese/cantonese svc this Sun! so exciting rite? coz she asked me whether i need 2 wk on Sundays as well..told her i juz hv 2 go 4 svc...asked her whether she wanna go..she said okie..provided my uncle takes her along when he drives my cousins 2 church...so tt my grand-dad (who's an anti-christ) wldn't suspect...
Oh! did i mention he asked me whether i've found a job? i didn't noe wat 2 say coz he'll kick up a big fuss if i were 2 tell him i'm wking in church...so i shook my head... it's not like i'm ashamed 2 b wking in church but he'll juz flip if he found out tt my cousins and i r Christians!
Anyway...i might b sitting in with grandma if she were 2 come 4 svc on Sun...but the chinese/cantonese svc is @ 11.15am (after youth)...so if she were 2 come with my cousins, wat is she gonna go betw 9 - 11.15am? hm...

Yah...P. Ian, AL and i had ministry meeting @ cafe 211 @ HV...was a refreshing change frm church lah...church was 2 noisy and dusty anyway (undergoing construction)...
Then met Samantha 4 dinner and coffee...hv known Sam since i was Sec. 2...she's facing prob with her bf back in Perth lah...yah...juz providing a listening ear...hvn't seen her in a long time...not since she came back abt a mth ago...heh...
Had a great time catching up... =) took a pic...check it out!