Worried Thot

Worried Thot

Daddy was admitted to NUH last night coz of suspected dengue. He was having fever on and off for the past week and when he cut his finger and the wound refused to stop bleeding, he knew he had dengue.

So... Under his doc's recommendation, we waited for 5 hours at A & E before we was warded for suspected dengue.

He looks pale today, though he hasn't been feverish for the past 2 days. But his blood platelets level is still really low - 64 (the normal blood count for an average person should be 150... I think.. Wendy! Help me with this!). So he's still under observation.
Being a good boy, Daddy has been drinking lots of water and eating lots of fruits.

THANKS ALL FOR KEEPING MY FAMILY IN PRAYER!!!
Mummy hasn't been sleeping well either. But the battle is not lost! Though pessimistic thoughts have been running through my mind, I believe that God is in ultimate control. And I trust that He will not take daddy away since he has yet to know Him.
How apt that we'll be starting a sermon series on faith! =)

Please do continue to keep my parents in prayer. That this will be the time when they'll see His glory and His grace revealed!

Scary Thots

We started doing soul in dance class on Saturday. Will be doing it for next week as well. We were doing jazz for the last 2 weeks. Wah.. Damn tough ah..
Realized that I really don't have the aptitude to do dance. R.E.S.P.E.C.T. to all dancers man! It's really hard work! Getting the tempo is one thing. Remembering the steps is another. And then there are stuff like control and isolation. Wah.. Damn tough man...
Hats off to Ange, Mandy, Karen and Peishan!! Really!

Had our first practice for tambourine dance on Sunday. Maggie, Mandy's friend, came down to teach us the basic steps for tambourine dance. Exciting! So far so good lah. I can catch it faster than I can with Yutaki's class. Heh..
Will be doing the dance with Wendy, Jamie, and hopefully Zac and Jen, for Music Ministry Encounter (MME) 2005. =)

Oh oh! I found out that Yutaki actually did a cameo on Light Years (some local teenage series on poly life) as a Japanese exchange student. Okie.. Random information..

Greedy Thot

Met Wendy, Peishan, Ange, Mandy and Zac later on Sunday evening for ChiJazz. It's this annual jazz festival at Chjmes. Had loads of food! Can you imagine? They splurged $102 on food just for the 6 of us! We had roast chicken, salad, ice-cream, yoghurt, grapes, 12-inch Subways. Not forgetting out Barcadi Breezers. Yum Yum~~ *rubs BIG tummy*

Music was ok. Got pretty bad towards the end. There was this lady in a lil pink dress with a weird name, who was screaming the head off on stage and flirting with the musicians.
Beverly something from the Singapore Idol fame (remember her? The crying one lah..) also did a few songs with a local band, which had a constipated vocalist. She was really good! Take it from someone who don't like her very much on SI .. =)

Good company, good food, so-so music, stuffing ice in each other's shirts, being "blessed" by Peishan's grape stalks dipped in ice-water... =P

Ange!! I want the pictures!! =P

W-O-L-S Thot

Am ploughing my way through The Da-Vinci Code. Yah lah.. very slow, I know.. Heh.. and I'm barely half-way there.
But it had been interesting. =) Am now at the part where they explain the secret behind Mona Lisa's smile. Apparently, she's supposed to be androgynous. Amon is the Egyptian god of fertility and Isis (L'ISA) is his female counterpart.

AMON L'ISA
Hence the name, Mona Lisa. Interesting right? =)
Truth or hoax.. Got to go find out more.

Festive Thot

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!

Enjoy the rest, you working and studying peeps! =)

Wierd Wine

"Da Bu Si" Wine

Some strange potion from my parents' friends..

So many things to say.. So le-che to type..

Urgent Thot

I have to get this off my chest. Never thought I'd sound like one of the loonies on TV.. but I have to say it...
THE END IS NEAR!!
The tsunami, Hurricane Katrina, Hurricane Wilma (who came up with these names anyway??), the earthquakes - these are only the beginning of the birth pains. These are not merely opportunities for us to be a blessing to the disaster-hit places. These are also opportunities to share the Gospel to them. Thousands of people are dying each and every day without the knowledge of Jesus' saving grace. Now, with all these calamities, we would have to expedite our process of evangelism. Some may attribute this to the monsoon or platonic movements, but we can't deny the fact that the fulfilment of biblical prophesies is happening right before our eyes.

"Turn to me and be saved,
all you ends of the earth;
for I am God, and there is no other."
Isaiah 45:22 (NIV)

Random Thot

Rosa Parks, the mother of civil rights, passed away at the age of 92 yesterday. She was, and I believe she'll always be, an inspiration to the black community in America - to stand up for their rights as a citizen in the Land of the Free.
There was even a movie made about her. That was actually the first time I've heard of this amazing lady. She was the bold seamstress who refused to give up her seat on the bus in 1955, when the buses were separated into 2 sections - the front part for white passangers only, and the back portion for black passengers only. She was jailed and fined US$14. Rev. Martin Luther King Jr followed in her footsteps by campaigning for civil rights for the African-American community.

For more information on Rosa Parks, you can check out this article.

Annoying Thot

The Hum saga continues..

*In Da Club ringtone ringing (for lack of a better word.. what else can a ringtone be doing??)*

Me: Hello?

Her: Hi June. This is jo-ann, P****'s sister.

Me: Yes?

Her: My sister hasn't been herself these days. This has nothing to do with her ok. Sorry ah, I want to say some things to you which may sound very harsh.
(What the nerve!)
Her: What's this about calling my sister a flirt and forwarding the emails to your friends?

Me: Jo-ann, in the first place, this is between the two of us, so I advise you to keep out. Secondly, I forwarded the emails to Alisa and Saion because they are our friends whom your sister has gone complaining to, and Roy's our leader.

Her: Ok. I'm very defensive of my sister and there are things I want to say to you that are very harsh. I read her diary and found out about some stuff....

Me: Jo-ann, I'm actually very busy right now (ya.. busy talking to Moo.. =P) and let me tell you one more time. It's between the two of us, so keep out of this.

Her: Ok. See you.

Me: Bye.

*Click. Too.....Too.....*

Nothing better to do after PSLE is it?

Dear Jo-ann,

There are things that you're too young to understand. Things that happened in school that you don't have to know in order not to tarnish your good impression of your sister. And it's rude to be reading her diary. Your sister shouldn't be leaving her diary lying around if she doesn't want anyone to read it (unless she does...since she craves the attention). I understandthat you're being protective over your sister. I like you too much to get you involved.

-June-

Sending the email to Hum had been the most liberating thing I have ever done. My close friends can tell you that they've never ever seen me so pissed off before. I'm also never one to say such stinging things to anyone in their face. I've have been pushed beyond my patience limit this time. It's my fault for taking so long to tell her off.
Volcano June has exploded.
Am still contemplating whether I should post the emails here.... *evil wink*

Relieved Thot

Watching "The Golden Girls" makes me thankful that this Hum thingy is not childish at all. I mean, they're like a 100, and the problems thay deal with sound like mine alright.. =P

Myanmar Memories

Pork curry and Google Talk.

The link? Myanmar!

Had pork curry for dinner just now. Guess everyone's afraid of catching the bird-flu and avoid chicken altogether. Brought back memories of the time spent in Yangon. =) The pork curry, not the bird-flu.

Made a date with Terence last week to talk to him online today. It's was great! Shared with him about the Hum saga. Said she emailed him to ask him to get in touch with Meju. Asked me whether I knew she still misses him. I have no idea why when she said she's being very careful around guys at this point in her life!

Anyway, happi thots, happi thots. It was great to talk to Terry after such a long time! The last time I saw him was in Yangon about 9 months ago. It's so refreshing! He's like, what, 22? And he's such a man of faith! He's just so encouraging and faithful! And so willing to serve! He always remembers to keep me in prayer. Such a sweet boy!
Miss those guys back in Yangon so much! Terry... Joey... Bhai... Veron...George... Cindy... Naw... Meju... Thar Ji...

Well, looking forward to see him online tomorrow... =)

Ghurka Embellished Hair-Calf Hobo

I simply love the ethnic detail - so intricate... so exotic.. =) And it's huge! Can bring my whole house wherever I go! Nice nice!
This baby comes with a price though - US$1300! Don't play play..

Bittersweet Symphony

Bittersweet Thots

Yesterday's junior cluster barbecue was fun! Loads of marshmallows and people-dunking after that. Heh.. It's tradition! =)
Jimmy put up a strong fight - a full 5 minutes of struggling before Kwang How and gang managed to drag him to the pool. =P

Today's service was...different..=) Leaders were asked to go to the front to be prayed for by the youths whom we're serving anhd then the leaders can pray for those who rededicated themselves to serve the community. It was a touching time of prayer when my cell kids came up to pray for me. I didn't expect it though, since I haven't been the best cell leader. It felt really good. =) Though I couldn't really hear what Debbie was praying. =P Moses and gang were a bit taken aback when they saw me all teary. Haha. Then I prayed for the cell to grow spiritually and to learn to love one another in His love. Julia teared. And it was the first time I actually felt that the cell has started bonding.. 10 months of hard work hasn't gone down the drain after all. =) Thank God for his grace!


Monkey Clan

Later in the afternoon... I was kinda disappointed at the outcome coz I really felt that he's capable of doing better. But I just want him to be happy. Wanted to give him a big hug. He seemed indifferent. I will try my very best to cheer him up (I'm really bad at this).

Re: The Clarification

Hum's reply to "The Clarification"

She completely denied sending all the Web SMSes, making me sound like a hallucinating lunatic! If Alisa wasn't present when she was SMSing me one day, she would have thought that I was making everything up as well!

Hum's status - "Accused-turned-Victim"

June's status - "Victim-turned-Accused"

She sounded so innocent and remorseful in her reply! She almost made me sound like a bitch sending her such a harsh email! I've never verbalized my unhappiness in such a blunt way before. I didn't even bother to mince my words or try to sound diplomatic coz I've had enough of her nonsense.

I know I have to learn to forgive. But I'm afraid of being used by her again. I guess it'll take time and I don't even know whether things will go back to what it was before.

Oh man! i'm 25 for goodness sake! This thing sounds so juvenile!!

DAD, please take over! Help me learn how to forgive and be gracious, just like how You're gracious and merciful. Please give me wisdom in my future interactions with her. Give her wisdom so that she will know what to do in her relationships with guys. I pray for more friends (other than me) to come alongside her to help her with her struggles in this area. I pray for patience for myself. Help me to love her with Your love.
In Your most precious and mighty Name I pray, AMEN!

Relieved Thot

I finally sent "The Clarification" to Miss Hum Li. 8 points on why I'm unhappy with her.

Happi Thot

Yesterday's surprise birthday dinner for Ailing was really good! It was held at Hu Cui Shanghainese Restaurant at Taka. Almost everyone was there - Clem, Jim, Thammy, Andrea (who organized it. Thanks gal!), Jen, Pris, Stephan, Dudley, Cecilia, Michael, James and our birthday girl, Ailing. =)
Good food, great ambience, excellent company and a faithful and inspiring youth leader and pastoral worker turning 3-0. I thought it was great that we all got to mingle and talk and laugh eventhough there were 13 of us. Am really excited to see the progress in Pris' and Stephan's wedding preparations. They've got the most adorable wedding invitations!

Glad that you had fun, Ailing! God is generous with his blessings, isn't He? =)

Thammy has nicely uploaded the pictures here, so please do check them out. =)

*Burp* Thot

The week of feasting.....

Wednesday: Mos Burger with Tracy and Vic when we met for Tracy's follow-up.

Thursday: Ailing's Shanghainese birthday dinner at Hu Cui.

Friday: Grandma's birthday dinner at Shin Yee's place, complete with chilli crab and brownies, and a chocolate birthday cake!

Saturday: Junior Cluster 2's post-exam BBQ at Huan Yang's place.
(Disappointed that most of my cell monkeys won't be there tomorrow coz of various reasons.. Sigh..)

Sunday: Usual pig-out session at cousin's place. Highlight - Ben & Jerry's ice-cream!

My only consolation: 1 hour of dance tomorrow..

God, I can be such a bitch....

Annoying thot

SMS from Hum to Alisa:

"June is really not talking to me. Can you help me?"

Please lah! Stop annoying our friends! Unlike you, they have work to do!

Happi thots

Went tanning with Ange this morning/afternoon after interview with Standard Chartered bank. =) Yeah! But there was hardly any sun and it started pouring.. Thought long and hard about where our next destination will be. Ended up at... *drum roll*... NUS! So happening hor.. =P Met my dear cousin for coffee at Spinelli's at the new University hall.. Yum! Pretty nice place.. =) We had to resist the urge to go shopping at the bazaar.. heh...

Our concoction of lotions and potions - secret to a great tan!

Beach babes and a great sea view =)

3 of us in the car

More ranting....

Recent SMS from Hum:

"Hey june. I'm trying my best to restore our friendship. I really am confused of why you're not happy with me. Please call me back. I need a clarification."

I shall title my email to her "The Clarification". =)

Ranting.....

I was running and listening to the radio just now when I was stopped by a middle-aged woman at the bus stop. She spoke in Mandarin and asked whether I was staying around here. And then..... she asked whether I want to lose weight and started to take something out of her bag.. I said no and continue my run..
What the...??!!

And what's with all these programs getting people to lose weight? Mediacorp has been coming up with programs sponsored by Jean Yip, Expressions, Mary Chia and what not, that invites real women to show the whole of
Singapore their cellulite and thunder thighs, and go through the whole exercise regime, dieting and fat-busting treatments at the beauty salons. Then, they had Project Slim ( which I went auditioning for.. so sue me.. =P) and Villa Wellness. Now, there's this program on Channel News Asia called Obesity Olympics featuring obese families going through hell to lose weight, so that they can... get this.. run a mile-long race or some crap like that at some sports event in the US.
HUH?? Why??

Congratulations!!!!!!

Photo taken with THE next Super Host! Congrats bro! He went for the audition today and he got into the semi-finals!! Yeah!!

I was already day-dreaming during sermon just now.. How they'll announce that Moo is the Grand Finals winner.. how he'll react and how his fans and family will react... and how he'll be holding a huge bouquet of flowers.. and how he'll be so overjoyed that he'll be speechless.. hahaha..

I screamed so loudly when he told me the good news when I called him after dance class today! Seems like the people around him are more excited about it than he is.. heh..

On the downside, he'll have lesser time for me once he's more involved in the competition when he gets to the finals (fingers crossed! =)).. Sigh.. no more morning, mid-day and late night phone calls..

Don't you dare forget me when you get famous ok? Or else... =P

Found this on nap's blog..
Alright..I'm bored, can...

7 things that scare me:
1. losing my loved ones..
2. having no friends.. =P
3. war
4. RATS!
5. the supernatural..
6. not being able to get married and have 2.5 Eurasian kids...
7. conflicts

7 things that I like most:
1. butterfly motifs and flowers
2. pampering (massages, pedicures, manicures...)
3. denim
4. glitter, sequins, beads, crystals
5. books
6. bags! (Lotsa them!)
7. babies

7 important things in my room:
1. computer
2. phone
3. bed
4. wardrobe
5. air-con!!!!
6. photos
7. mirrors

7 random facts about me:
1. I have 5 god-brothers - David, Yixian, Yixiang (they're actually my cousins who became my god-brothers...it's complicated..) Deon and Daniel (they're my friends who adopted me as their sister.. Whom I'm actually closer to.. =))
2. I am too lazy to own a pet
3. I'm big-boned (or I chose to believe so..)
4. I was band major of my secondary school band eons ago
5. I have never gotten drunk
6. I have 7 piercings
7. I had my right molar extracted

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. get married (to a filthy rich guy who happens to be really cute and Godly) and have many many kids
2. own a house, a black BMW and be a VIP at all up-scale boutiques
3. travel round the world
4. lose 30kg
5. help families in poverty-stricken countries
6. learn as many languages as I can
7. buy a huge house for my parents with a garden for mummy and a backyard for daddy's birds and fishes, and 2 maids so that mummy doesn't need to clean the place
(8. To watch the All Blacks play in NZ)

7 things I can do:
1. sing
2. play the euphonium
3. play touch rugby
4. be an Ah Lian
5. annoy the hell outta my mummy
6. spend money in a flash
7. burp really loudly (sometimes in people's ears)

7 things I can't do:
1. eat alone in a public place
2. play a guitar (coz I'm darn too vain to cut my nails)
3. drive legally
4. splits
5. draw/sketch/design (I'm a 'words' person)
6. become a vegan (I love my meat too much!)
7. do up my blog (HTML and me are NOT friends..)

7 things I say the most: (vulgarities counted or not ah?)
1. harlow
2. idiot
3. go and die lah
4. take care
5. byez/lolox/muackz/hugz
6. wah lao
7. annoying

Can I whine???

Can I whine? Of coz I can! It's my blog!

Today didn't start very well...
First, I got an SMS from Hum's sister.. lil P. 6 sister, mind you.. Says "hi june! jo-****, hum's sis, here.. im aware of the barrier betwen the two of you okay.. but my sis did NOT tell me about it.. she just seemed so down and all.. and i found out la.. but, care to tell me what happened?"
What the heck is she trying to do??? Accused-turned-victim is it?

Never mind.. So I got ready to go for dance class.. Left the house at 10.30.. then it started raining really heavily so I decided to cab it.. 45 mins and many many many swear words later, there was still no cab and so I didn't turn up for dance today.. Sigh....
[Thanks Moo, for bearing with my cursing and whining.. =P]

Plus.. my mudder is in 1 of her crazy moods again...

But dinner with the NUS cell was great though! Nice nice food at this seafood restaurant near Sunset Way... Nice nice cake later at Jelita's O'Brien's.. =) Happie happie!

I feel totally inadequate to lead people into worship or to lead a cell.
My own life is so messed up man! I've got unforgiveness in heart... with Hum, with my mum... I totally haven't been a good testimony to my family and friends...
I suck! I'm really not worthy to worship the Holy God... nor am I worthy to be a youth leader.. less I bring them astray..
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trigger Happie Part II

Jud's Birthday Dinner @ Couduroy & Finch 02/10/2005


The birthday gal!


Group pic


Lil & Jud


Me & Priscilla


The SJSM gals

Trigger Happie... =)

Reunion with Eny & Moo


Cheeky pic


Yum-cha at Crystal Jade


Fave couple pic


Doesn't Eny look sweet? =)


The gals!

My good friend's mum just passed away yesterday morning. She was supposed to undergo blood dialysis and she just had a change of anti-biotics for her infection (she was a kidney patient). But I guess Dad couldn't bear to see her suffer anymore, so He decided to take her back home. She passed on peacefully at the age of 53.

Was at her wake just now. One could never truly understand the feeling of losing a mother... at least I couldn't. I can only imagine the pain of seeing your mother suffer for the past 20 years, having to send her to a nursing home not because you want to but because you were unable to take care of her due to your need to work, having no time to visit your mum because you're working so hard so that she can have a better life, having to make trips to and from the hospital and the nursing home, having to worry about soaring hospital bills, having to see your mother waste away in her last days.... One can only imagine...

Alisa, you have always been so strong.. You never faltered and only fixed your eyes on Jesus.. Your mum's demise was unexpected but Dad's timing is always perfect. We can rejoice because she is in eternal bliss with our Father. She will never have to suffer.
Be strong! I'll be here for you...

So Funky!

I went for my first dance class ever! Actually no... I did ballet for some kindergarten celebration thingy (don't laugh!! Ok.. So I look ridiculous in a pink tu-tu.. Round and pink.. Sound like something you know? =P)

So anyway, I went for a hip-hop dance class at St. James' Church with Amanda, Karen, Angie and Wendy.. =) They all could dance and I like the only beginner amongst the experts! Cept for 1 "auntie", I am the other clueless one in class.

Teacher's this guy called Yutaki.. Reminds me of Moo though.. Don't know why.. heh..
He looks just like a dancer (duh!), posture and all. He made us do 30 minutes of warming-up. I was perspiring like a pig 10 minutes into the warm-up already! There is this difficult stunt that I couldn't do coz my calf muscles are too hard.. Sigh.. So embarrassing! The choreo part was fun though. =)

My tummy and my arms and my legs are aching from all that exercise today!! Good stuff! Looking forward to next week's class!
More power! =) Yo yo yo..

Intriguing and disturbing at the same time. Made me wanna go online to find out more about Marquis de Sade.

It's kinda scary how de Sade's writing distracted a priest's plan to save his soul. I mean, I understand de Sade's desire to go against societal norms and religious principles. Scary, isn't it? I actually find his writings really fascinating - how he writes about the pain of love and the love for pain.

This is a play that discusses the role of the artist, and the right to create no matter what the circumstances. It has a magnetic appeal that keeps the audience captivated throughout the play. Even after I came out of the theatre, I was lost for words. I was so intrigued by the whole presenation of the play - the mise-en-scene, the sound, the lighting, the blocking, the costumes, the script... It was great!

It somehow made me think about how the deil can make us fall (there was a scene that protrays the priest succumbing to lust with the devil disguised as the Marquis delighting in his fall) and how we should always draw strength from God because we can't do it with our own strength. Also what I would do if I was in the priest's position - he had tried to talk the Marquis into turning back to God, taking away his writing instruments (his quills, paper, bedsheets, curtains, clothes), killing him ultimately when he took away his creativity (his brain)..

It's a thinking play.. Am still thinking about it after a week and a half...

4/5 stars.. =)

*Ain't very coherent..wrting this at 2.30 in the morning.. but can;t sleep.. what to do? =)