My Lil' Darlings

unselfish

That was the word that came to mind before I fell asleep last night.

Our GOD is unselfish. Selfless. Generous.

DAD, I'm really sorry for my unbelief. I thought things were going well and dandy for me but You know truly know me better than I know myself. I'm sorry for putting You in a box because of my lack of faith. I can ask You for the impossible coz nothing is impossible with You!

Thank you for your faithfulness even in my unworthiness. Thank you that Your love for me has and will never waver. Teach me to put my trust in You. Teach me to ask You for the impossible. Use me Lord I pray even as I serve in the marketplace for this season.

In the precious Name of Your Son,

Amen.

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Johnson used this song during worship today and I just begun to understand what it means.

You said, "Ask and you will receive whatever you need"

You said, "Pray and I'll hear from heaven, and I'll heal Your land"

You said, "Your glory will fill the earth, like waters the sea"

You said, "Lift up your eyes. The harvest is here, the Kingdom is near"

Chorus:

You said, " Ask and I'll give the nations to you"

Oh Lord, that's the cry of my heart.

Distant shores and the islands will see Your light

As it rises on us.

*Oh Lord, I ask for the nations.

Update

Update

Work
So I'm still with Pico. For another 6 months, that is. For the World Bank Meeting which will be happening in August and September. I'm told that thay probably won't need me to work weekends cept during the event. =)

Something tells me I'll be too lazy to look for a job and settle for an admin position, which is the only position that doesn't require one to work on weekends, here. Heh.. We'll see.

Random
Went for darling god-nieces' birthdays last 2 months! Such cuties! They've grown so much! And oh so ADORABLE! Tried to take pictures of them but they were too active. Haha.
(Please check out Moo's blog for related photos. =))

Went shopping with Moo on Labour Day and came back with lots of goodies! Happie! =)
(Using my pretty green Gucci wallet now!)

Made chocolate cheesecake @ Tracy's with Shin and had our mini 'family meeting'. Haha.. Fun fun!
(According to Tracy, the filling's too watery. Can't really imagine..but sounds quite gross.. Heh. =P)

More dancing coming up! For the Diocesean Prayer Revival Meeting and Missions Emphasis on the 21st! =)

** Everythings good! Cept for flu and cough.. *sniff sniff heck heck* Sound horrible singing.. =P

The Weaver - Anonymous

My life is but a weaving
Between my Lord and me
I cannot choose the colors
He worketh steadily.

Oft times He weaveth sorrow
And I in foolish pride
Forget He sees the upper
And I, the underside.

Not till the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly
Will God unroll the canvas
And explain the reason why.

The dark threads are as needful
In the Weaver's skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He has planned.

I had that thought again just now.

First time in a long time. Not since a few years ago, when I was taking the pills.

Primarily for her to carry that burden of guilt for the rest of her life.

Made stronger by the sight of the open window in my room.

I'm sick of it all. Ending it might be the best solution.

Childish? Yes. Stupid? Yes.

I'm going insane. Push me any further and I'll retaliate in a way that no one can fathom.

Over-reacting? Maybe.

This might be the last straw.

SJSM Open House

SJSM Open House dancers!!

The Nyonyas and The Abang

Chinky-Pants

Bhangras

Layering (hehe..)

DIVERSITY!!

Seen on a packet of jackfruit chips from Vietnam:

By a special system, the chemical substance (which one?) is not used in the manufacturing process for the fresh fruits processing into dried products in maintaining their nutritive facts (huh?), natural colours and flavours.

These products have also a good smelling and crunchy feature which will give a good taste and provide more nutritive facts (more what?), vitamin, mineral salt necessary to the organism and protect from the extra glucoza (er... yes...).

PMS

Dear Hum,

I am NOT depressed though you "heard" that my life's not well. I am doing pretty well and I don't need your sympathy.

Spare me the crocodile tears.

I really don't give a damn about your life, so quit sticking your nose into mine. It's extremely ANNOYING!

-June-

P/S: Also Don't snoop around my back trying to find out stuff about me when you don't have the guts to ask me yourself. Anyway, don't even bother to.

Dear June

Thank you for your interest in the position of Ministry Administator (Missions).
We thank God for your heart in serving Him in the area of Missions.

After much prayer and considerations, we are sorry to inform you that you are not shortlisted
for the next interview. We will keep your file for future reference and will certainly consider
you when there is a suitable vacancy.

May the Lord bless you and guide you in your work and ministry.

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I have mixed feelings when I saw this - relieved because it's a big responsibility and Mon Peng's shoes are too big to fill, and disappointed because I have once again been rejected for a job opening.

Well...
Job search continues....

Finally some photos...

OMG!!!! I look like Lydia.... Lydia Sum (!!!!) wearing Moo's glasses!

My wound is much better now. All thanks to daddy! I showed him the pus and all and he just went to our corridor, where we place our plants, and plucked some leaves. Told me to crush them and apply the herb to the womb. Mum helped to bandage it. When I woke up in the morning to 'unwind' the bandage, I realized that the swelling went down and the wond was flat! I did the same thing last night as well and now my wound's pretty much dried up. Still sound quite gross lah, but it's really much better! Shall have Doc Ngiam look at it again Hehe....

Went for a meeting yesterday at Pico. They're going through some restructuring and the objective of the meeting was to inform who's going to which department. There'll be 2 exhibition departments and 1 events department and.. yours truly has been allocated as the main admin person for the events department!! I was shocked!
Was really swamped in papers yesterday from the 2 departments I'm helping out with and have totally decided that admin is really not for me. I mean, I really admire people like Lydia and my direct supervisor, Lily, for their eye for detail and their patience. Really amazing! I'm really not agaimst people who do admin but it's really not what I want to do! HR has already told me that if I like the working environment here, I can continue to work here permanently but I didn't expect them to throw me into administration!!!!
My mood was totally ruined after the meeting and found no motivation to go to work at all. Called Moo up to whine and complain (as usual). Sigh.. I really don't understand why they can't put me as Account Exec instead of admin! I asked this girl in EMS who's doing admin now and will be promoted to do sales after the restructuring whether it's a phase that one has to go through before they will release us to service accounts. She said 'sort of'. But when i asked the Account Execs over at SPD, they told me not to waste my time doing admin or sales at Pico. Apparently, I'll have better prospects at other event companies.
(It's quite strange that they kept raving about my degree...... They kept telling me that a degree holder like me shouldn't be doing admin...)
Think I'll go talk to my GM on Monday.

And continue to scout around for jobs... Sigh.. I was so looking forward to working here! I thought my job hunt's over.. But apparently not.. =P

Night cycling was really good! I'm surprised I managed to survive the whole event! Not without any accidents of course. I fell trying to remove my helmut at East Coast Park, on the way to Bedok jetty. So embarrassing! Josh and Elaine had to help me disinfect and bandage. But the bandage wouldn't stay coz of my perspiration. Sigh.

When we reached Bedok Jetty, my legs gave way when I got off the bike and I gloriously fell a second time! Aiyoh! So embarrassing!
My butt hurt. My thighs hurt. hands hurt. My wounds hurt.
But I enjoyed it! Really don't mind going for another one like that. Bryner, Josh and Alissa were really good leaders! Bryner's really steady lah! =) Mei, her friend, Vanessa (she's really pretty!), Dorothy, Hui Yi and Vic were in my team. Did I miss anyone out ah? Guess not.. =)

Okie.. This is the gross part.
So I grazed my arm and knee when I fell off the bike at ECP right. They're now oozing with pus-like stuff. Damn gross lah! Mum passed me this white Chinese herbal powder thingy to help try out the wounds. Looks really gross now coz I've got this whitish yellowy dried pus scab kind of thing on my wounds. They look like warts! Eeeeeeeeeeeeee........ So ugly!

Moo said he knew I was going to fall. That was why he kept telling me to take care. Heh.. What to do.. Mum calls me accident-prone. Heh heh..

I'M REALLY HAPPY TODAY!!! =) =)
HEE!
*BIG SMILES*
Totally smiling to myself. Can't help it. Don't know why. =)

Random

Learning not to carry other people's monkeys.

I'm thankful for people and little things that make me happy! =)
Thank You, DADDY God!

Congrats Moo! Round II down. 2 more to go! =) Gambatte!
*Awaiting my Gucci wallet... =P

Project Runway

I took the "Retro Runway" quiz on gURL.com
		My fashion is inspired by... the '50s Are you known as dependable? Maybe even a little conservative? Then the decade that brought us the baby boomers may have ushered in your sensible style. Something tells us that you would never be late for school because you didn't have a single thing in your closet. Read more... Which fashion era do you belong in?

Day 3 @ Pico

It's my 3rd day at Pico Art.

I know I sound really sian but I am pretty happy here. =) So far so good lah... The people here are nice, my direct supervisor's a wonderful Christian lady and I'm really enjoying my lunches with here. Am shared between the Special Projects Department (SPD) and the Events Marketing/Management side (EMS). I haven't made contact with the peeps from EMS so far because they've been real busy.

Was approached my the HR Manager this morning. She told me she's planning to offer me a permanent position if I find that I like the environment here after 2 months. Whee!!! But I'll be doing what I'm doing now (admin lor...) with EMS for a start, and then move on to doing more hands-on stuff (sai kang lah.. =P Basically things like procurement of things for events,..and stuff). Sound fun, doesn't it? =)
Suggestion to ask HR to employ me straight away as perm.. Haha.. Think I'm gonna wait till the end of the month to tell her whether I want to work here permanently.
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Oh! Dance prac yesterday was fun! Open House is going to be exciting! =)

** I NEED A TAN!!!

Met Jud by accident on Sunday while browsing alone at Library@Orchard! Went for coffee to catch up a bit because we haven't seen each other since her MPC graduation.

Was talking to her about what I want to do - marketing or PR, and she was saying that she's tired of doing market research and wants to venture into something more meaningful, something that will allow her to touch lives.
That got me thinking about my desire to want to work in the real world. I personally don't want to return to working in church till after I've got some experience working in the secular world. Especially so coz I want to do counselling.

Maybe I should review what I want to do as a career. Actually, I'm not a very ambitious person. Heh.. My primary concern now is to pay the debt I owe to my dad. He'll be turning 54 in July and it won't be very long till he retires, and I want to return him his CPF preferably before he does. Currently, I owe him $18k, and counting, for my uni fees. So basically, I looking for a job, not build up a career. Not very exciting hor? =P

Anyways, am gonna start work at Pico Art (ok ok.. I've heard pretty bad reviews about them so far.. heh) this coming Tuesday as a Project Assistant for 2 months. Hopefully, fingers crossed, they'll like me enough to offer me a perm position to do events management. =) And hopefully, toes crossed, that my precious Sundays won't be burnt!

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Oh yah! Congrats Moo! =) I'll be behind you all the way!

I need a tan!!!!!!!!

The Beautiful Wedding

Saturday

Photos courtesy of Sarah Mok's webshots.. :)

Pris and Stephan's wedding is so sweet and touching! You won't believe how many times I teared during the church ceremony!

It was indeed a privilege to be their worship leader. Seeing how God is sovereign and faithful in their relationship really encourages me. The love of God and the fear of the Lord is really exemplified in their love for each other and His people.

Their dinner at Grand Shanghai's great too! The ambience is nice, the food is served in individual portions, music's old school reminiscent of the old Shanghai (also provided by Thmmay, the DJ for the night) and Andrea and Shawn make really good emcees! The couple also did the traditional waltz in their Chinese costumes! The celebration of the unification of a couple who overcame physical, cultural and spiritual boundaries!

Sunday

Had a fantastic lunch with some of my cell girls, and a guy. =) For some reason, Julia and gang won't able to make it for cell lunch, so it was Gayle, Rachel, Beatrice and Reuben. Think it was really divine intervention coz Pastor Stanley, Gayle's dad, spoke to me on Friday, after the tertiary cluster meeting, about the group dynamics within my current cell. The girls weren't motivated to come for cell because they don't feel comfortable, with the other group dominating the discussions (if we had any) during bible study.

Was really glad to be able to spend time talking to the "quieter ones" during lunch! It might sound wierd, but they're actually pretty normal kids! =P Heh.. I totally enjoyed it! (I wonder of they did as well..=)) I found that Gayle and I shared a common love for sweet stuff and she introduced me to Fried Mars Bar. Rachel spoke more during the outing than she had ever before during cell. Beatrice opened up so much! And Reuben is just a really sweet dude.

I've noticed this problem within the cell and have been trying to give more attention to Rachel and group. I don't know how else I can solve this besides splitting the cell and praying like crazy.

I do believe that differences can be overcome. Sounds idealistic, doesn't it?

God, I can't do this alone. I need You!

You are a Lily:

You are graceful, gentle, calm, and pure and

perhaps a little shy (though your shyness is

part of your charm). You are a very honorable

person who always wants to do the right

thing. Your calm attitude has a soothing

effect on others.

Symbolism: The lily has long been used as a symbol

of majesty, honor, chastity, and purity of

heart.

Really?

Which Flower are You?
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Saw this Johari Window thingy on Sandy's blog.
You know how I love taking personality tests. =P

Click on the link below to help me with my self-discovery ok? =)

http://kevan.org/johari?name=juniejune